今天开始认真抄心经,打算每天晚上8点半开始.沐浴,样本采用王羲之的心经字帖,这就去买笔墨纸砚去.晚上持续更新.
Wednesday, 7 October 2009
半眼
一直都觉得菩萨的眼睛很迷人,半闭不闭,半睁不睁,让整个表情异常的慈悲和平和.这几天看了禅意生活这本小书才清楚原来这叫半眼,一半看内心,一般看世界.
正常我们的眼睛都是全睁的,看的都是外面的世界,对自己内心的小世界很少有所关注.因此,越往外看,越难了解自己.而半眼则不然,看得外界很有限,只看周围和自己有关的外界,一部分更远的外界视角完全舍弃了,而留下的一半精力却能很好的审视自己的内心.
也许,我当前的疲惫完全来源于我对外面的世界过于关注了,看这世界太纷乱,诱惑太多,欲望太多,不仅没有精力去审视自己,反而让自己更加迷失了自己.我每天晚上8点钟,是最烦燥的时候,也是最浮躁的时候,从天涯逛到安家,再逛到自己欲望最深处,内心一刻未曾安宁,这样一逛下来就是12点,不仅让自己身体更加疲惫,精神状态也一样萎靡不振.
所以,每天晚上8点半以后我要改变自己,这2个小时,要养成每天审视自己的习惯,抄写经书,让自己安静下来,身心都得到好的调养.对于手上的事情,只要虔诚的做好每一件事情就好,不必在意结果.我做到过一次,变不可能为可能,这一次就是我考研的时候,之后,我一直都是失败的,其原因就是我的功利之心太强了,没有踏踏实实的耕耘却要求好的收获.这一次,我相信自己能够改变自己,也能够做好这些事情.
写好了以后,内心居然就这样缓缓地平和下来,手上的事情也变得清晰了很多.:)也需这3年对我的意义将是非常大的,注定将比我平静无波澜的生活要丰富多彩的多:))
近半年以来一直很疲惫
最近这半年以来,一直都非常的疲惫,好像所有的激情都耗光了一样,心非常疲惫.什么事情也提不起兴致来.目标很宏大,但是总好像有心无力的感觉.
是不是给自己的压力太大了?按说,我没有任何经济压力或家庭压力,和Teddy的感情也越来越好,但是总觉得疲惫.也需我想做的事情太多??自己都不信了?
我想进行一个自我修复的疗程,从今天开始,从现在开始.
Thursday, 6 August 2009
Friday, 26 June 2009
Remember the time,我的叛逆时代
那个时候，我生活在自己的世界里面，那个世界充满了漫画，MJ，基督山式的复仇；我喜欢穿着超大的蓝色衬衫，带着宽宽的眼镜，是一只想当狼的狗。这个世界的一切我都不在乎，我不在乎家人对我怎么看，不在乎别人如何对我指指点点，更不在乎老师如何一次一次没收我的书，愤怒的骂我，直到我在他眼中读出无奈2个字。
连我自己都不知道我在乎什么，我只知道我喜欢疯狂骑车，飙到和卡车速度一致并把衣服卡到上面，不过幸运的是，我还是活了下来；生平第一罐啤酒，就是在一面看Remeber
the
time一面完成的，虽然至今我仍然几乎不喝酒，貌似也是第一次和最后一次自己和自己喝酒；最幸福的事莫过于自己一边看MJ的MV，老爸一旁数到居然有30+
个MM因为看到MJ而幸福昏倒而大大摇头；连我的小鸡宝宝都被我训练成为一只会走平衡木和皮球的斗鸡，后来在鸽子群中耀武扬威；我会在上英语课上公然打扑克，居然把老师打的目不斜视，不敢管我，让这位三十多岁的男老师看到我就疯狂骑车逃走，好像晚一秒我就会把他车子搞个粉碎；我会去帮好朋友和班主任请假，理由是她失恋了，要出门散散心，彻底雷到他，然后两个人走在漫漫大雪中......
在那个世界，我并不孤独，有MJ一直陪伴我，我是不愿长大的彼得潘......
我仍然怀念那个高中岁月，那个无忧无虑,亦正亦邪,小混混的岁月......
Remeber the time......
Remember the time, MJ
真希望他真的化作一片黄沙，卷走别人的爱恋，让人浮想联翩，某天会在不经意间，某个胡同口看到他熟悉的狡诘一笑......
Do you remember
When we fell in love
We were so young and innocent then
Do you remember
How it all began
It just seemed like heaven so why did it end?
Do you remember
Back in the fall
We'd be together all day long
Do you remember
Us holding hands
In each other's eyes we'd stare
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Do you remember
How we used to talk
(Ya know)
We'd stay on the phone at night till dawn
Do you remember
All the things we said like
I love you so I'll never let you go
Do you remember
Back in the Spring
Every morning birds would sing
Do you remember
Those special times
They'll just go on and on
In the back of my mind
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met girl
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Those sweet memories
Will always be dear to me
And girl no matter what was said
I will never forget what we had
Now baby!
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Remember the times
Ooh
Remember the times
Do you remember girl
Remember the times
On the phone you and me
Remember the times
Till dawn, two or three
What about us girl
Remember the times
Do you, do you, do you, do you, do you
Remember the times
In the park, on the beach
Remember the times
You and me in Spain
Remember the times
What about, what about...
Remember the times
Ooh...in the park
Remember the times
After dark...Do you, do you, do you
Remember the times
Do you, do you, do you, do you
Remember the times
Yeah yeah
When we fell in love
We were so young and innocent then
Do you remember
How it all began
It just seemed like heaven so why did it end?
Do you remember
Back in the fall
We'd be together all day long
Do you remember
Us holding hands
In each other's eyes we'd stare
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Do you remember
How we used to talk
(Ya know)
We'd stay on the phone at night till dawn
Do you remember
All the things we said like
I love you so I'll never let you go
Do you remember
Back in the Spring
Every morning birds would sing
Do you remember
Those special times
They'll just go on and on
In the back of my mind
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met girl
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Those sweet memories
Will always be dear to me
And girl no matter what was said
I will never forget what we had
Now baby!
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
When we first met
Do you remember the time
When we fell in love
Do you remember the time
Remember the times
Ooh
Remember the times
Do you remember girl
Remember the times
On the phone you and me
Remember the times
Till dawn, two or three
What about us girl
Remember the times
Do you, do you, do you, do you, do you
Remember the times
In the park, on the beach
Remember the times
You and me in Spain
Remember the times
What about, what about...
Remember the times
Ooh...in the park
Remember the times
After dark...Do you, do you, do you
Remember the times
Do you, do you, do you, do you
Remember the times
Yeah yeah
Thursday, 7 May 2009
CPA 计划，自5月7日开始执行
新计划...
今天，开始会计和审计，目标到5月26日看完。每天9个小时，中间休息2天，一共18天，共计162小时。
其中，会计占到72小时，审计是90个小时。
在5月26日收尾的时候，需要将会计和审计的新课件完全搞定，并且外加4遍复习。
每天将恢复用Excel表格来追踪。
今天，开始会计和审计，目标到5月26日看完。每天9个小时，中间休息2天，一共18天，共计162小时。
其中，会计占到72小时，审计是90个小时。
在5月26日收尾的时候，需要将会计和审计的新课件完全搞定，并且外加4遍复习。
每天将恢复用Excel表格来追踪。
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